i know it's hard to stay away from temptation or curiosity. i would'nt blame you..i jus hope that after this experience u learn from it..and think clearly if u really have to do it. i can't always be there to help you guide you..you have to learn for urself...try ur best to be independent. At first i was'nt quite like the idea of u dying hair bah, maybe because i'm over-protective or wat? i also don't know..i jus don't like the idea of it. Maybe bad impression or wat? but after saying all tat and i reflect..i should'nt have stop you maybe? i should instead jus let u do wat u like..but i jus scare the consquences will be horrible bah..i'm sorry.

hai..todae had training. went for a few rounds in the school and had training. it was bad..lost my temper lor..hai, i am damn pissed off with the coach lor. i use the ball I DID'NT WHACK HIS ASS?i jus merely slightly threw at his butts so the ball can bounce back and i can score..IS THAT REALLY PUNISHIN MY TEAMATES BECAUSE OF MY TEMPER? You told us to play dirty tricks and here i am doing one and u scold me? oh freak you.

after the match i shut myself off from my surroundings and played my own game. i was totally on fire after that..i feel like giving whoever come near an elbow. i jus totally went berserk..i played hard and fuck! again and again!! i injured..hai, why is my body full of injuries? have i did something terribly wrong..? pls..i have enough of my injuries..i can't play my peak anymore..i'm devastated enough..give me a chance to shine..

haix.